A LONELY CRY!
For decades, lead forced life puppet like. Afraid to disagree and was terrorised to agree. At home, Appa was a mix of Communism and EVR chauvinism. Never let me speak as he alone owned facts and opinions. It was no different at work with Government. Forbidden by law to speak in public and discouraged to express independent opinion in private. Never could speak out convictions or react to issues. All angers, frustrations, insults were swallowed and digested for survival. And when I had temerity to express on rare occasions, was called arrogant, stupid , egoistic and misinformed.
For decades could never claim that I was a devout Hindu and that I was proud of my ancestors . When informed that I desired to visit temples, many raised eyebrows. Some even remarked : ”We had thought of you as intelligent. Aren’t you Secular?”. I was tied. Was being Hindu, anti everything? Muslim Saibaba and Mother Mary were close to me. But my Hindu beliefs were derogated as superstitious and my roots redefined as barbaric. My ancestors were declared big zeroes. We had no past achievements. Temples, Classical literature, Poetry, bronzes, sculptures, paintings, music, dances, handicrafts etc inspired by Hindu Gods didn’t exist. I was repeatedly asked to be ashamed of heritage and told that India was invaded by compassionate benign invaders. But for the invaders, my country would not have existed now. Sanskrit was enemy to Tamil. English, French, Urdu were friendlier. I accepted all insults with unmoving finger on my lips. Cannot afford to sacrifice life like my ancestors.
School history was filled with positives. Mohammed Ghazni was an example of endurance as he repeatedly looted Somnath Temple. Babur and Akbar were great. Humayun was compassionate. Shahjahan epitomised Love. British built India. Bhajan Raghupati Raghava Rajaram became secular after removing hindu related sentences and addition of Ishwara Allah Tera Naam. Tamil Thai Vazthu faced same fate as Hindu related portions were removed. On conversion from Hinduism, converted became Hindu baiters. Atheists selectively targeted Hindu beliefs and turned Nelson’s eye to foreign religions. Constant non stop pouncing on my beliefs were reforms . Brahmins left India to help build the West.
No media, no politician, no poet, none thought and spoke against these concocted positives. Target was clear. The only surviving civilisation hurt many and needs to be dismantled from within.
Media played sidekick to politicians who twisted history to carry on their agenda. Language became a potent political instrument. Many in TN stopped christening kids with holy names of Hindu Gods and instead replaced them with secular “Tamil “ as either prefix or suffix. One became an instant ambassador of Tamil values though none ever defined them. Listened to many admire high sounding empty rhetory as oratory and saw those who wrote grand nothings receive awards and positions as rewards. You grease those in power and powerful let you run their wheels smoothly. Poet Kannadasan called contemporary Tamil as வெற்று மொழி. I felt too she lost her standards and was turned into காகித மொழி. But தமிழ் வாழ்க roar was reaching skies. Like ‘long live the queen’, who was mutilated and dead. But I was nobody to question. Survival mattered.
Bruised and battered about my sensitivities , had no guts to say I was apolitical either, unconnected to Politicians, which was indeed a fact. Secured my work on merit but in bureaucracy it was fashionable and politically right then to claim one got job through high recommendations. Such claims helped later in getting comfortable safe postings & occasionally led to invisible offices by unfriendly politicians. Nepotism was openly celebrated. Being seen as extension of vested interests helped stay secure. So I bluffed by mindless dropping of names. And I managed both to avoid meeting politicians for personal benefits throughout my career and waiting for darshan of senior officers to pamper egos. Universe blessed me in retaining my self respect, professionalism and independence throughout.
Casteism was rampant in the corridors of power. People of a caste glued together for mutual lobbying, support and security. In public everyone was against caste but that was another brilliant hoodwink drama. Politicians mostly preferred their caste as their staff officers. Sadly, I was never informed of my caste by my parents. But after joining government, I was enlightened and reinforced of my caste by my colleagues. Some feared me. Few loathed me in jealousy. Handful loved me too. I could never understand Politics behind caste. But I stayed mum for fear of hurting my caste and becoming casteless in egalitarian TN. It’s caste that defined you.
Secretariat was divided on political loyalties and by castes. Religions were secondary though they mattered. If you had a decent posting under rule by a party, it’s definite that you will get a punishment post on change of government. There were rare chameleonic species that were exceptions and managed postings under all govts. We were United by our common belief that corruption was not an untouchable thing and is inclusive in all our decisions. We all had a right to the common pie. Commission corruption ruled. Tricks of the British rulers cemented as customs. Honest Officers were often sidelined. Some honest managed to survive by balancing with a lorry load of Sychophancy to political masters and senior officers. Govt of India was no different but caste was no factor there. Rare Honest Officers did exist everywhere and one felt an angelic aura when you met them. Long live that clan! As they say, it rained because they exist.
Almost whole of Secretariat openly indulged in Brahmin bashing but secretly mistrusted scheduled castes. Many Brahmin Officers joined the racist tirades for self security and showed themselves as Cosmopolitan and as beyond castes. Brahmin officers were trusted more. Some Dalits secured jobs under quota were Christians. Reservation quotas were ignored in some departments. What meets the eye and what really happened were diagonal to each other. You can’t question. Period.
Decades of suppression broke when Modi won in 2014. For the first time , it was safe to voice independent opinion. You can question anything. Take down status quo. Only guys tied to the pole for ages knew joys of being set free. Yet, some bauled that freedom of speech was being suppressed. Don’t know who is suppressing whom? Hypocrisy and drama politics of the lowest class on. The present cries are for status quo, for continued strangulation of majoritarian voices. Modi became a thorn as he made corruption tougher and breaking of law, difficult. Who is he to destroy our easy comfy lives?
Nehru was a master of censorships, bans and oneupmanship in politics. Chief Ministers of Tamilnadu slammed endless defamation cases on those who dissented. It’s different now. This freedom didn’t exist earlier. No PM or CM was defamed as were being done now. There exists no fear. You can even threaten to kill PM and yet be free. One leader threatens to annihilate all Hindus in fifteen minutes and hate speech has become free speech. It’s a free for all. Revenge and retribution are in the air for anything. Fake news flourishes. Technology furthers fake propaganda. Yet some say there is fear is in the air. Those who say so are ignorant of the social history of intolerance in independent India.
Total subservience was called tolerance earlier. Finally that eternally tolerant subservient HINDU race chose to twist its spine a little and they are now called oppressors. Hindus prayed to Mother Mary and were mocked as having turned to Church after losing trust in their Gods. They worshipped Muslim Sai Baba and raised temples for Him. Yet, the shrill against Hindus was getting sharper. Their warning is clear. If you try to assert and protect your singularities, you will be attacked. Hindus lived in amity despite castes but now caste is reinforced to divide them. Any attempt to unification of heritage will be taken down as brahmanical subterfuge. Hindus need to continue to stay as slaves as thry had during last nine hundred years. Fake race theories, concocted archeological myths, setting one caste against another, superficial scholars who mastered distortion of history helped the cause. Journalists were the new intellectuals. The antithesis against them is now presented as dictatorship, authoritarian, anti democratic, hate mongering and other negative epithets. Change has pains. If you don’t endure, you will back to prior 2014 Stone Age.
The best way for any thief to escape while being chased is to point to another as thief and help catch an innocent man as thief and join in beating him up. This game plan is being implemented. All is fair in love, war and government. Those who lost by the new revolution are determined and united to follow the trick.
There has never such excercise of freedom of expression and free speech as guaranteed by Constitution as its now. Yet this whiff of fresh air that hurts some accustomed to earlier pollution. Such cacophony was never heard in Free India. Yet propaganda of suppression, oppression are on without relating to facts because political change hurts those who had enjoyed it . I believe, We never had it so good. India is about to take a leap into the future as never before. Thank God for this freedom! Indian democracy has aged now. I am sure this change will last...
Warning: If Hindus do not see through the subterfuge and machinations against them, it may be curtains on their heritage. The speed with which temples, it’s idols, lands and hundi disappear mean that they are paying the price for their disunity. Soon you may lose your freedom to decide your future. Unite or Perish!
Excellent. But article is very short.
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